January 28

This particular song is a regular on The Message these days, and I'm glad that it is.

There's a line tucked away in its lyrics that always catches in my throat a bit, and it's particularly poignant this time of year when the anniversary of Logan's passing draws near:

"Where is God in the sickness that the prayers didn't fix?" it asks.

Because if I did anything at all while Logan was sick, it was pray. Yet... well, you all know what happened. And what didn't happen. And I've absolutely asked God thousands of questions about why he didn't get to grow up with us.

I will never understand the whys of it all on this side of Heaven, but I take comfort in the other words of this song, which read

"He is right here where He's always been, It's where He'll be til the very end. Where is God? God is with us."

Regardless of my circumstances, God is with me. And I'm grateful for that truth, even when there are no answers to the whys.