April 2

This itty bitty tree may well be the most amazing thing in our new backyard. And I don't make that claim lightly because our yard --which features a pool, a waterfall, a hot tub, a built-in BBQ grill, an expansive patio, and stairs to an upper observation deck that offers up a panoramic view of the hills to the west (which means sunsets!)-- is truly, objectively spectacular.

So why is this one plant so significant? Well, when Logan died, we were given a tree that looked just like this one. We figured we'd move some day so we were both hesitant to plant it in the ground because we knew we'd never be able to leave it behind, so we did our best to keep it alive in its little pot. Eventually, our efforts failed and we were both so disappointed that we kept its little trunk in its pot long after its expiration. And then eventually-eventually, we let it go.

So as I surveyed the many different plants scattered around the property and found this tree there in its little blue pot, I just knew it was from Logan. For Logan. And it will always be a very poignant reminder that though we may feel some sadness over moving "without" him, he's actually with us --in that blue guest room and in that little tree and in many, many other ways-- regardless of where we go. And in this case, he was just waiting for us to find him.